When Jesus meets you

... you receive revelation...

I have a love + hate relationships with conferences. They are amazing in the moment, give you this great spiritual high but then the high wears off and you're left with notes that make you feel all wonky on the inside.

The last 4 days of December is the onething conference. This was my 4th year. This year something changed. This year there really wasn't a high feeling. No, there was a deep heart shift. Jesus met me.

I won't call is a crisis of faith. Because it wasn't. I will call it a welcoming. I feel like I met Jesus, the real Jesus, for real, for the first time.

We met and He invited me to know Him. He shook my hand and we locked gazes. Jesus introduced Himself and I did the same. He asked to pursue me. I said yes. And then He began to tell me who He is.

One of many conversations we will have looked like this...

I am sitting on the hard concrete floor that is covered by a thin layer of carpet. But it's where I landed and Jesus doesn't care where we talk. I begin to think about this guy named Jesus. I think about Him in the way the bible describes Him to be. I see Him - in my mind.

I see Jesus standing in the throne room of Heaven, standing on the right side of His father's throne. He is searching for something. His eyes are flames. They move side to side, these eyes of fire. He is searching the earth, searching His people. And I hear Him say, "Will I find faith on the earth? Will I find faith on the earth? Where is my beloved? Where is my bride?"

Then His eyes focus on me. On ME! Those flames begin to search my heart, they search my mind, and like the furnace the flames burn away all the filth. Within the flames of Jesus' eyes I feel the immense burning love, devotion, passion and jealousy begin to burn away everything that holds me back from loving Him perfectly. The flames burn away all the other lesser lovers that steal my time, my energy, my devotion to Him.

And I see Jesus still standing next to the Father and He reaches down with fire on His hands. He takes His hands and reaches into my body - into my heart, mind, soul, will and emotions. And He refines me. He cleanses me. He brings to life what is dead within me with His fire.

Friends, we have to know Jesus. Not know about Jesus, but know who He is. Jesus is a man who deserves our praise, our love, our affections, our time, our devotion. He is worthy because He is who He says He is - He is God. Beloved, the day will come when you will meet Him face to face. This in not figurative language, I am serious, you will meet Jesus. And when you meet Him, don't you want to know Him?

Holy Spirit I ask that you would reveal Jesus to our hearts. Enlarge our capacity to know and love the man Christ Jesus. Spirit of wisdom and revelation come! Amen

~Nicole